Recently, I’ve felt out of touch and inaccessible.
Recently, I have little to no concept of reaching out to others for help
Recently, the people I’ve chosen to put faith in have utterly and completely failed me
Recently, my main sources for support and community have been out of commission
Recently, I’ve retracted back into my own world filled with tons of thoughts, perceptions, and my anxieties
Recently, I cannot see how I once relied on certain people for a variety of things
Thankfully, my support system regardless of how far they are scattered have remained the same
Thankfully, I have outlets to express my discontent, and disappointment
Thankfully, I’m taking the time to articulate how disoriented I’ve been feeling in a positive manner
Thankfully, the group of disappointed people will not be here for much longer
Unfortunately, I will have to mend some of the relationships that are strained
Unfortunately, my home life is still difficult and affecting me 286 miles away
Unfortunately, that strain and stress is hard to explain to others for my own fear of misunderstandings and lack of acceptance
Finally, I know I’ll overcome, persevere, and succeed
Finally, I trust the Lord for he has never failed me–in spite of my daily, hourly, and weekly sins and disobedience
Finally, I understand how frustrating it may be for Him to see me not putting in nearly as much effort, faith, and love that He has in me.
Honestly, I feel relieved after writing this.